always antisocial
I hate myself and how I decieve myself. I hate the times when I wish for attention, when I wish to be around people, when I wish to be social. It's not possible.
More often than not this happens. I get there and I become absolutely miserable. Enough to want to hurt something. Why go somewhere when you don't really know anyone? All that happens is that I get abandoned. I'd rather just spend the time alone because no one will leave me and ignore me like they do. It would be my choice to be alone. Not something I'm forced to endure.
Ever cry out of frustration? It's a terrible reason to cry.
Those who are anti-social should stay that way. Going out only gives you furthur reason to remain so.
I want my Rigatoni with Eggplant, Tomatoes, and Riccotta cheese....but I don't want to wake anyone up with the microwave. Eff it. I need it. I'll eat it cold.
Time to cheer myself up with anime, candles, and food. I hope it works. Perhaps I'll just sleep it off.
The mask is from PSP.
The image is from Nocturne.
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